Today marks 13 years since my son Rory died. This year, I’ve grieved him through writing. I am abundantly aware that I am far from the only one robbed and run over by horrendous grief. Yet, I am reminded that suffering is not meant to be endured alone but carried together.
Tag: Loss
Feeling Your Way Through Grief, 5
Fragile. Grief is feeling fragile in places you hope to keep sealed and intact. Like trying to hold on to eggs while riding a roller coaster. Journal Prompt: I feel fragile…
Feeling Your Way Through Grief, 4
Guilt. Grief is a magnet for guilt. You feel guilt that you did too little. Guilt that you did too much. Guilt that you survived. Guilt about your feelings, missed opportunities, and mistakes. When these feelings morph to a cemented state of being it chains you to the past and prevents forward movement. Journal Prompt: I feel guilt about…
Feeling Your Way Through Grief, 3
Threatened. Grief pummels emotional stability. Like yoga on a paddle board, the emotional self wobbles through normalcy in the midst of grief. Already uneasy, emotional collapse threatens in harsh comments, the mundane, in mistakes and disappointments, and unnecessary commercials. It's no wonder you keep a distance from your emotions. Why wouldn't you? Journal Prompt: I feel threatened by...
Feeling Your Way Through Grief, 2
Senses. Grief is experienced through your senses–your hearing, sight, smell, taste, and touch. A familiar song. Unexpected fluorescent lights. The smell of Autumn. Bites of cheesecake. The texture of a blanket. What you smell, see, taste, hear, and touch show up in your memory of what has been lost. Use your senses to feel your way through grief. Journal Prompts: My grief sounds like... My grief looks like... My grief smells like... My grief tastes like... My grief feels like...
Feeling Your Way Through Grief, 1
Without. Bobbing in feelings of disconnection and isolation, grieving is learning to live without. It's learning to live without people you intended to live with. It's watching from the outside the experiences you hoped for. It's missing milestones you expected to meet. Journal Prompt: I am learning to live without...
Not Depressed, Heart Broken
What if you considered your depressive symptoms as heart broken?
Big Decisions: Journal Prompt 4
There are no guarantees in big decisions. But there are leaps. Leaps where your feet are required to leave the ground. You are required to make a move. Vulnerability. A new place for your feet.
Painsgiving
Can we find gratitude through grief during the holidays.
Depressed because I’m Human not because I’m Mentally Ill
I'm aware of our culture's low tolerance for the uncomfortable. In my experience, there seems to be a fear that drives this low tolerance. The fear of limitations; that we can't fix everything, that it will remain messy, and resolution will not come. This fear seems to keep us in fixing mode and our tolerance low for … Continue reading Depressed because I’m Human not because I’m Mentally Ill